So yes, there I was in the car with my Daddy and stepmom, on the way to detox. I had my Dad stop at a CVS right before we got there so I could buy a phone card. But I also had him stop because I still had 2 bags of dope in my bag and I was determined to use one last time. Its the nature of the disease. Even though I WANTED to stop, that switch (you'll hear me talk more about "the switch") was flipped still and I was still and addict and I still wanted to be high. So I went into detox high as a kite. I don't think I'm alone. I this is a very common place thing that happens everyday when people are checking into rehand for whatever reason, getting high before you go in is a must. So I did. I get there, they meet us at the door and hurry me to say my goodbyes. I knew what I was walking into because I had been there 2 or 3 times before when I was MADE to. But this time..this time it was MY decision to be there and I was determined to succeed. I swore that would be the LAST time I ever used heroin and it was. I KNEW in my heart that this was it for me. I hugged my Daddy and stepmom, got my bags and walked away into those doors. Those were the doors to freedom even though they locked once you walked through them. Those locked, secure doors were the doors to the next chapter of my life and I just KNEW that THIS TIME, this was IT for me. I was done and I was entering into the process of becoming ME again...and I couldn't wait.
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