Falling In Love In the Rear View MIrror

 Once Kenny started working with Jonathan, I'd sometimes, well often times, take Jonathan home too and little did Kenny even realize at the time but through a rearview mirror I fell in love with Jonathan Hedpeth. When he would get into the car, he and I would have conversations while Kenny listened to his stupid rap music and talked on the phone about getting more pills. And he would treat me like crap right in front on Jonathan. Talk about embarrassing! But I never had the nerve to stand up to Kenny, not yet anyways. By this time we were living in a trailer, we rented a room from another couple. He was a shrimper so he would be gone out a lot and she'd be left there alone so having people around made her feel better and we needed cheap rent. I can't even recall how much it was...that seems like a lifetime ago now. Kenny ended up doing somethng stupid and having a warrant for his arrest and I was just over it so in the summer of 2014, I had Kenny arrested. I called the County Sherrifs Office and told them I wanted him gone so I would help them catch him. So we set it up so he was in my car at a certain time and I would get pulled for a tail light out. He'd ask for everyones ID and then run Kennys to see there is a warrant. Kenny was angry because I had talked him into coming with me to do something for HIS dad. Then, sitting in that car he looked at me and said goodbye. I think we both knew at that moment, that was it for us. We knew we'd try but deep down I know I knew that was it for us, because , after all, I had fallen in love with someone else and Kenny had no idea. But thats not what made me grow a pair. No, what did that was after living in pure filth just to be with him, he had the nerve to head-butt me during an argument. He busted my left eye right on open and blood poured down my face. All of this happened in front of our son while he was sitting in his carseat. At THAT moment I swore, I promised God that was IT. I said once a man laid his hands on me I was done because I knew that meant it was down hill from there and that was just crossing a line I wasn't willing to budge on. I must have had some self respect even as a junkie, huh?